Back...(again...)

Okie... I'm back again... From Hong Kong and Taipei with my family! Honestly, the trip didn't turn out as bad as I imagined... Minus the fact that I'm currently gym-deprived (in other words, yes, I put on weight... but again, who won't with the wonderful food in Hong Kong & Taipei, duh...) and I'm also down with flu...

Besides the two shitty facts, I did kinda enjoy myself (though I can't quite say the same for my parents n brother... )... Interestingly, I took more photos than I thought I would! hee, and also managed to finally take a family photo after donkey years! WIll upload photos once I figure out how to use the apple's equivalent of adobe... Might take a while though...

Anyway, several things took place when I was away...

firstly, I got my final results.. and as expected, I got a second Lower... Honestly, I'm not that disappointed, in fact, I'm pretty cool about it... and even had a pleasant surprise knowing that I got an A- for my ISM! Hee.. thank god man... I really really thought I did a really awful piece of work and even anticipated a C! Thank goodness...

From the bottom of my heart~
Thank you (my dear supervisor) for seeing the good in the load of rubbish I submitted... and of course, I hoped that my contribution would be useful in your research.

Other than that... did so-so for the rest of my modules...Though I was a tiny winy bit disappointed in a couple of the grades... but oh well, what matters is that I've OFFICIALLY GRADUATED, with a CAP of 3.93 (cute, my cap actually went up by 0.01 this semester! WTF)

Secondly, PA called me again and upated me with the pay that I would be getting...(I'm not sure if I can post it online... but anyway, shall not do it..) The basic pay's pretty bad.. but on top of the pay, there'll be a monthly allowance that's pretty good though.. so my overall pay (both basic + allowance) would add up to be reasonable... But honestly, the main concern that I'm having, besides the pain, is whether or not I want to take up the job offer. I don't really know what I wanna do actually, and neither am I sure if this is the right job for me. The job sounds fun but again, the career prospect is really limited... It doesn't quite help when the pay's a little, weird... as in, I don't understand why can't they just raise the basic pay?

Out of curiousity and fun, I went for tarot reading and asked about whether I should take up the job offer anot... Interestingly, the reader interpreted my cards and came to a conclusion: That this job doesn't quite suit me...if I were to take up the job, I would end up having to change (either in terms of my character, or in terms of my interests or something like that) to adjust to the demands of the job. Thus, I would be better off not taking it up as there would not be much future prospects for me. She also added that I would not have a problem looking for jobs that are more suitable for me...

I would be lying if i were to say that the tarot reading did not influence me at all. In fact, it kinda added to my confusion as well as this uneasiness in me... I'm feeling uncomfortable about the idea of taking up this job as well as unsure of what I really want in a job... Gosh, I thought one more year in honors would give me a better idea of what I want in life, but after this year, I'm still at step one... I still have no idea what I want... sigh.... I really needa spend somemore time thinking it over properly...

Maybe god's telling me through the tarot reading (yeah, I can feel the christians screaming at me telling me that tarot reading's devilish) that this is not the path I should take... I want to believe that this is god's way of telling me what I should do....

I just want someone to tell me what I should do... I don't want to make my own decisions anymore...

Dilemma...

I got a call that woke me up from my beauty sleep...

Man: "Hi, is it KeYing?:
KeY: mumbling... "Yes"
M: "I'm calling from PA and would like to inform u that...
K: (in her mind... okie..calling to say that I didn't make it...)
M: (continues) " you have been selected for the job. So are you still interested?"
K: (breathes in and hesitates) "Yes."

Actually, I'm not too sure if I'm still interested.. After I shared my decision of going for the interview with several people in my life, I recieved mixed responses - most of ithem gave the 'duh' look and the 'what the hell are you choosing this job' look... With advice that it's not going to be an interesting or fun job and that hours will be shitty, blah blah blah... Someone also commented that I should find jobs that are more fun and more suited to my personality... (he was like, try the Zoo or something along that line..) In fact, I do agree with him, I can't imagine beng stuck on a boring job for the rest of my life...

so that places me at a crossroad, one way leading to a stable and secured job, another leading me to a road of uncertainty and risk, yet with benefits that could be greater than that of the other one... What should I do?

I'm so lost...

Back to Reality...

Back from Hong Kong... Oh well, not feeling much about it actually... There were ups and downs on the trip... Bad aspects of the trip (Maybe not that bad): I totally overspent and felt kinda lonely and bored during several periods on the trip, but of course, there were some Good aspects: I made new friends! (Got a BFF - best friend forever) and I managed to explore much of Hong Kong that I never had the chance to do so previously...

Interestingly, I experienced many first times on this trip even though it was probably my eighth or tenth time visiting..
1. Wandering on my own for the first time in Hong Kong,
2. Taking the Mini BUS,
3. Trekking on Dragon's back trail and sitting on the edge of the cliff..
4.Trekking from Sha Tin to some wulu place (I walked 10.68km!!! *Beaming with pride* and I even thought that I was going to die),
5. 'Plucking' (or rather, cutting) strawberries from a farm
6. First clubbing experience at Lan Kwai Fang.. (damn expensive but it was an eye opener =P )
7. Walking two really cute dogs (My cousin's) and feeling as if they were mine.. They are such darlings and that definitely reinforced my dream of wanting to rear dogs in future.. and it's getting me more excited in fact...

Definitely, these accomplishments pretty much outweighed the downs on the trip.. so overall, guess I'm rather satisfied with this experience..However, a little part of me feels rather sad as I return back to reality and back to my life in Singapore. Reason? Sadly, most of the friendships that I've build over the trip and the year in Honors class would end up being the 'annual' kind - We'll probably meet up with each other once a year.. Too bad I guess, but it's definitely better than nothing~ =P

Life goes on anyway... with friends or no friends.. I don't need a dozen of friends.. I just need a few good sturdy ones.. and they know who they are!

I believe that's enough...

Will try to upload my hong kong pictures...someday..(if it ever comes)

Revamp...

Decided to give my blog a facelift. Well, looking at my blog makes me down. So, I've decided to do away with the gloomy grey and adopt the simple and fresh 'white' look. Looks a little bland now though, I must admit. But no worries, once I figure out how to use Apple's version of photoshop, I shall spice up my blogs with pictures of my loved ones and hopefully, interesting snapshots of my life using my Apple baby~. LOL

Besides, from tomorrow onwards, I will officially join my beloved sista, Qian, on her journey of blogging, since we'll both be freed of the burden of studying! Which means, more free time to blog and NO NEED for anymore studying, exams, lectures, tutorials...omg, I'm loving just the sound of it... Hopefully, I would then be able to devote more of my time on blogging then~

Muahahahahaha... one more paper to graduation~
Wooo-Hoo.. I'm almost there! =P